During the 2nd quarter of the year, life has been great! Not only I'm satisfied with my work, I'm satisfied with my relationship as well. Well, come to think about it, work was not that satisfying after all. -Laughed- I had not been working hard enough for the passed 3 months. Till now, realized that I've fallen quite far behind and it need a little more effort to get back up. The momentum is broken.
This September, another 5 more days to go, will end the 3rd quarter of the year. And looking back, there are much regrets, of which I know if I had done a good job, it wouldn't be there in the first place. But however, I feel, without regrets, how else would I differentiate satisfaction. And therefore, with a wake up call, from people around me and my coach, I've picked up my momentum again. Though cases are not coming in yet, but the activities are there. In place.
How did I get myself back on track again? It was the gather of all the informations and the wake up calls from everyone and one of the event would be my visit to the church last Sunday. The pastor shared with us some values of which I was reminded that life is too short to be just little. And so... I would share it with you and as a way of recollecting my memories of what I have taken back to myself.
The pastor shared with me, 3 major points.
1 - Courage
2 - Focus
3 - Faith
COURAGE. One very big word. He said that one may have the strength to do a thing, but without courage to doing it, he/she is powerless. On the other hand, one may not have the strength to do it, but with courage, he/she is someone.
How I relate this point back to myself was, when I was fighting for my KunMing challenge with Prudential, I went all out. I didn't care about what other people say... or should I say, I was too busy looking for opportunities, that I selectively choose what I want to hear and see in life. And my life changed. Not only I got my KunMing challenge won, I realized that I am capable of working hard and fighting for my dream. I wanted SO BADLY to go to KunMing. So badly till nothing could stop me. The feeling was great. In other words, I had the courage to take up the challenge that Prudential threw then, knowingly I have the strength to do well.
Forgotten the bigger picture, I slacked with Egypt. I got tired of fighting. I got DISCOURAGED. I gave up. Suddenly felt that it was out of reached, and so, I gave up. I slowed down and I began to build habits that is un-productive.
Having been to the church on Sunday reminded me of what I'm fighting for in life. Not just trips.. not just money.. but for my family and my loved ones. They say, "When you have big dreams, be prepared to face big obstacles." I've totally forgotten about this Law of Universe.
Egypt is the prestige Star Club for Prudential Wealth Planners to go for holiday. It's a reward that Prudential gives to their top producers in the company, and out of 10,000 agents Prudential has, only 10-15% of us qualify. Qualifying not only means that I get to visit my 1st, 7 Wonders of the World, I get to be on newspaper, to be recognized as one of the producers in Prudential. Typing these words down made me excited and believe that I can do this. Remembering what my coach shared with me, she said, "If I want something that I never had, I have to do something that I never did." And so, my journey starts again. I felt great!! Because I know, I can do it. Now that there is still time, I have to change my approach and fight for what I want, with COURAGE and strength.
FOCUS. "Focus on your goal!!" Reading the sentence carefully, I realized that there's no 's' at the end of the word, 'goal'. That means.. I need to focus on ONE goal, at a time. Having realize that... I refocus myself. Repaint my bigger picture to ONE goal, EGYPT. Nothing else.
I was DISTRACTED away from my goal. I was distracted by my own fear. Fear of losing. Fear of trying hard, and gets nothing. And that's where I had lost the battle, even without a war. The words of wisdom from Sun Tzu applies. It hurts and I regret having slacking off. However, I still have a bit of time, and stopped myself from thinking of the past, rather, FOCUS on the present and believing again.
The pastor shared, "Focus gives energy. It guides efficiency. Gets thing done." And so, it is. Second it with Anthony Robins, "Whatever thing I put energy into, will grow!" Believing that I taking productive and constructive actions, I will be able to hit my Egypt by the last quarter. Now that is clear, I'm focusing only how to get opportunities and keep asking for a chance. I believe that with God's power, doing my level best, He will reward me with the HONEST effort that I put in. Now, I just FOCUS!!!
Lastly, FAITH. "You gotta have faith for that to work!!" Words of the vampire - Fright Night. I still remember that movie very much. There's where I got my name, "Vincent". Since I have a pair of vampire teeth. That story aside, it is the sentence that excites me. "You gotta have faith". Yes. The pastor shared with me, whatever we are doing, never doubt. Believe that with the right mental attitude, right platform, right place, right values, the right thing will happen. I gotta have faith. I gotta believe so much so that I will be there, at Cairo, Egypt. Believe it so much until it's like a religion. Until I am unmovable.
The pastor shared with us a story to illustrate this.. "When we are in the plane, often a time, during take offs or landings, we are asked to fasten our seat belts to keep us where we are. So that in case we are shaken, there's the seat belts to hold us down and keep us unmovable."
And in life, the 'seat belt' is FAITH. To me, faith is the basic of principles. It is the principles that I have, that keeps me believing and doing what I feel is right. What may seem like an outcast may not be wrong. What may be the minority may not be popular. But what is right to me, will make the difference in my life. Having faith is an important part of my life. Often a time... I was DISAPPOINTED with life. And that's where my faith has to come in to strengthen me down, and hold me, unmovable.
During my fights and knocking to open doors to opportunities, I was disappoint all the time. I was disappoint by people. I was disappoint by event. And the truth is, I was disappoint by myself.
Being there to listen, rather than just 'hearing' all these, slapped me to awareness, that I was DISCOURAGED, DISTRACTED and DISAPPOINTED. And acknowledging those feelings, I had brought myself back up again, and walk this journey. Yes. I'm hurt. I'm bruised. But I'm still alive. Healthy. I can still fight. The journey has just begin, and I'm no where to give up again. What is life to me, if I don't face discouragements, distractions and disappointments. It's just like the story of someone, who had never felt happy before, can never recognize happiness. And someone who had never felt sad, will be unable to differentiate happiness from sadness.
I want to fight. I want to live. I want a life. I only live once, and I want to make the best out of what I have in life.
